Piece of paper!!!!!!!

A child's life is like a piece of paper on which every person leaves a mark. Chinese quote

Protect them from wimps. The thing that I don't understand especially in Africa is that we fight homosexuality but fail to put molestors behind bars! Where is justice? Are you fighting the effects when the cause is still there? Hypocrites galore!

I don't know!

"What's apathy? I don't know, and I don't care." Science may have found a cure for most evils; but it has found no remedy for the worst of them all - the apathy of human beings. Helen Keller"

There is a cure for apathy; death, war, illness, loss, hard times, disasters, all these cure Apathy as well as  ignorance, maybe we should have it in abundance so that we remember to care? Science and religion creates and cures boredom of men towards life.

Hero!

Down through history men have always been measured by how hard they work and cultivated, how well the protected their wife and children. In the old days woman saw their man as conquerers, providers, heroes. But somewhere along the line that change, woman started to became their own hero, maybe it was because their man forgot to be relic or because woman don't want to be protected anymore or maybe woman had to be their own hero because of the pain they had to endure in life. But whatever the cause, the world took away a man's reason for being a man. It told him he wasn't important anymore and when that happened, it turn the whole world upside down. Quote from film "Not easily Broken"

I can't readily agree with this quote as this seems to be more of a wish than it actually ever was on a mass scale! There were and are men that are Hero's and there were and are women that till this day are their own Hero's, maybe that's the design that both men and women are to be Hero's to each other and those who are to themselves! Wars, sicknesses as well as nosy ass family members are the things that occur and will still occur as natural and artificial influencers to changing roles within a society!

No situation is permanent and no hierarchy is above the other! There are weak men and weak women, there are strong men and strong women from birth or by self nurture! Power is an illusion, respect however is strength! In a family where respect exists and an objective outlook to life and surviving there is usually no dispute to who is to be or not to be a Hero  they both are to each other and to those who depend on them!

I don't know if one is to be given any special invitation to feel important. If one's actions as a person brings good to the family then respect follows, except by some stuck of luck one happens to find oneself with the wrong person! Dump that ass like a bad habit, no one was born to suffer. That's not love when one is abused!

The Monster!

Show me your friends and I will tell you who you are; I once asked someone to tell me what they thought of me, I realised it was different from what I thought of myself and they described me as them! If you want to hate yourself be like or liked by everybody you meet!

Oops guys who can't handle women formed the church and its policies. Considering that men have more physical power and women being too weak minded patronised it. Now we have what we see.

As long as You fight Love!

If you want to see love fight it! It has its way of rearing its head in the very unpredictable places and manners! Parents who stand in the way of their kids being with someone forget that they once were in that situation which is why they are fighting it when it repeats itself in the lives of their kids! History they say always repeats itself! If one sees a manifestation of an event in the lives of the generation why fight it? Your wife fought her father for the chance to be with you and your daughter stands before you fighting for hers and all you say "What is Love"? You must be kidding parent if you think that they don't know your history! For them it will work out because they had seen what you did for yours to have gone wrong! How about helping them make it and in return you heal yourself and keep the family intact with an additional member in your hood of life rather than coming out as the devil incarnate? Or best if you don't know how to help your kids not repeat the same mistakes just be neutral and let life take its course? Interfering only stirs the pot to overheat! Deuteronomy 24:16

What is' mercy?

What is mercy? One asking of the other to pass a sentence that the other wishes? What justice is there in that? Forgive is possible if one can erase the events to forget! Can a murderer return the loved one back? Can someone retract the intent to kill another yet was caught?

Thou shall not kill, lie, bear false witness, covet these are unforgivable actions, thou shall not commit adultery is only an after effect of being pushed away! Causing loneliness upon someone and then persecuting them for trying to be alive again is injustice! Who is merciful to the cruel eventually would be cruel to the merciful.

"“The best revenge is to be unlike him who performed the injury.” ― Marcus Aurelius"

Wake Me Up!

Do unto others as you would like done unto you would mean protect the rights of others as you would yours!

Giving another a second chance would mean you are giving yourself a chance to heal! But what if they haven't changed? Test before you take them back in or you would be a fool again! 

Too Big too small?

To organise a society in some form presents a form of oppression, there will always be those who wouldn't like the size of shoes you give them. For some it's too big for some too small!

A census of a nation isn't to be taken through how old or what size of homes and how many are living in but the measure of ambition within the hearts! You can't shrink a heart into a shoe size, it's a shoe in Itself to be walked in! There are those for whom planet earth is too small and a lifetime not enough!

Loneliness defined!

I went into solitude because the majority bore me. I don't care if anyone agrees with me, I just don't want them to harm me because I don't agree with them!

Amazing to what length some will go in agreeing with your opinion just to keep themselves out of harms or rejections way! I ask "do you now know why you have so many followers and very few friends"?

Racism Let it Go!

When I'm born I'm black, when I grow up I'm black, when I'm in the sun I'm black, when I'm sick I'm black, when I die I'm black, and you... when you're born you're pink, when you grow up you're white, when you're cold you're blue, when you're sick you're blue, when you die you're green and you dare call me colored. By Oglala Lakota

Amazing what through observation one can see and what ignorance can be blinding too!

Let Me Be Misunderstood!

As long as people are going to call you lunatic anyway, why not get the benefit of it? It liberates you from convention. Gregory Maguire

Read it with sorrow and you will feel hate.

Read it with anger and you will feel vengeful.

Read it with paranoia and you will feel confusion.

Read it with empathy and you will feel compassion.

Read it with love and you will feel flattery.

Read it with hope and you will feel positive.

Read it with humor and you will feel joy.

Read it with God and you will feel the truth.

Read it without bias and you will feel peace.

Don't read it at all and you will not feel a thing.

Shannon L. Alder

I have often wondered why people are afraid to be misunderstood, isn't it a cage to be caught like a bird? Why fly? Reading through the quote of Shannon L. Alder its quite evident that the experience of truth depends on the state of mind one is present with at the time of contact with information.

Why don't you do right Monroe?

What in real life one can't do pictures can aid it. Imagination. Some people need a push in the direction they seek. Tit for tat is a good tool so long as it doesn't involve injury but to the heart that betrayed you. Revenge is best served cold.

The Aha should become a Waw!

An artist does not wait for an audience she creates it in her mind! Who ever waits before they start never have anything to show! If someone says music dosnt inspire vision maybe this would be enough to prove them wrong! When I see other artists at their craft I cease to have any excuse to lay back!





Various cultural groups value in themselves different forms of expression! Every act is an expression of cultural value! Even marching can be made into an art yet cultivate discipline! If your own craft doesn't amuse you, you can't amuse the audience! The Aha should become a Waw!




Who said one has to have all tools to be brilliant. its what you do with what you find and have. Sometimes I ask myself what is the difference between Asia and Africa! What makes them so organised at-least from the image they project?! I have traveled enough to know that "everything that glitters isn't gold"! But in my travels I also know that even a little glitter is better than being smudged with mud!

Quest to the kingdom of heaven!

Lead us not into temptation, and deliver us from evil!

I am in search for the truth, an insight into why sometimes the truth is accepted in some and why sometimes it is rejected in others!

Lying is a form of luring which is why the truth often repels or invokes a certain level of negative emotion in people who don't want to hear it! If those you meet are led to the truth by being patronised make sure it isn't their carnal instincts that are at play! Stay away from negative people or ideas so you may not have to patronise their ideas!

I am beginning to understand that if an opinion serves a purpose in someone's life it is considered the truth! Empty words are hated its a form if not the very method of patronising!

The truth that encourages one to feel better is often accepted but could it be a form of patronising? The truth that forces one to think about their bad behaviour is often met with a negative response.

Sometimes ones inability to change has nothing to do with unwillingness but for lack of visible options! If one is able to show a direction one could be seen as saying the truth but if the receiver isn't able to make good use of the option given the giver is often persecuted! Don't dish out empty words, give advice/insight, show the way and help achieve the goal. Thats the best way to deliver the truth!

“Which of you fathers, if your son asks forf a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”

The Man in the Iron Mask!

The story of the Pauper and the Prince reveals many angles to life lessons.
Exchanging comfort for a moment of depravity would give one a sense of reality as well as a sense of Identity not to talk of a test of character!

If one works hard enough on themselves as well as on a craft then there would be very little difference between a child who comes from a perceived wealthy and poor family. The nature of a man is from their inner determination to succeed or grow, it doesn't often mean that because someone comes from a poor home means they have a poor background. Values play a big role to differentiating  roles. There are kids who are judged by who their parents are and that is wrong as some fruits do fall far from the tree, some wind might have blown in the other direction if you understand what i mean. Destiny, fate or in what ever way you may call it has an influence in our lives when change or growth is demanded.

Can the person live up to an image or a dream? My mother once said "you can be anything you wish to be". I didn't know that was called identity theft :)". Imitating another person may go right or wrong if the heart of the undertaker isn't convinced of what they are pursuing.

Another aspect is in the method by which kids are brought up and i wouldn't emphasise that it is only in our days but today a lot of kids are segregated by their families; you shouldn't play with this and you shouldn't play with that. Now the effect of such upbringing shields the kids from understanding themselves and others as well as life itself. I wasn't brought up by a father or grand parents who created barriers. My father would test me at how i interacted with kids who were a little lower on the scale of "class" as well as kids of same level as i. I went out bare feet and played under the rain. Carried buckets of water from the general pump where everyone did and walked on occasion to school instead of being driven. This allowed us not to develop negative inferiority complexes, we exchanged views and that allowed us to learn from each other. I would go to the market just like any other girl; in summation i wasn't treated as anything special but he made me feel strong and cared for us deeply.

They say "bring up a child in a particular manner and he/she shall never depart from it"; habit is our major downfall or Uphill and at various times in our lives we need to evolve. There is a time for everything under the sun. A time to rest and a time to play and a time to work and no one should be forcing anyone to do anything but an inner drive to be good and successful can be dampened by events as well as an unwillingness to be better.

Free yourself, like a gazelle from the hand of the hunter,
like a bird from the snare of the fowler.
Go to the ant, Consider its ways and be wise!
It has no commander, no overseer or ruler,
Yet it stores its provisions in summer and gathers its food at harvest.

There are six things the Lord hates, seven that are detestable to him:
A haughty eyes,
A lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood,
A heart that devises wicked schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil,
A false witness who pours out lies
A person who lets poverty in the community.

Rapunzel, Rapunzel let your hair down!

"Rapunzel, Rapunzel let your hair down"! "Sorry dude I have cut it short, go build a ladder out of the hair that lay on the grass"!

I had no fence and I was rubbed, now that I have set my house on high pillars everyone is complaining that it's too high! I have grown long legs and would slow down only for the worthy! 

Very few understand the story behind Rapunzel. She put herself up on that tower. No one knows what the hair means. I don't kiss and tell. Tough luck climbing those rocks. Knight in shining armour - what glitters isn't gold, nether is a pauper a prince. the Beauty might as well turn into Le Bitch. If a smile drew him near, tears will drive him away.

Foretell to Foresee.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:34

If tomorrow is taken care of by today why worry about tomorrow? The results of our actions can be predicted In terms of how far "foretell" and how wide can foresee! How far to me means the length of time it may continue to create effects and  how huge it will be through the response! Foretell to Foresee.

Bridge the gap!

Being honest is not necessarily the truth. How you feel is the truth according to you! How you make others feel is their truth. Bridge the gap if you seek connection!

Wiped out image!

People think that a liar gains a victory over his victim. What I’ve learned is that a lie is an act of self-abdication, because one surrenders one’s reality to the person to whom one lies, making that person one’s master, condemning oneself from then on to faking the sort of reality that person’s view requires to be faked…The man who lies to the world, is the world’s slave from then on…There are no white lies, there is only the blackest of destruction, and a white lie is the blackest of all.

Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged

She did not know the nature of her loneliness. The only words that named it were: This is not the world I expected. Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged

The meaning of the book Atlas Shrugged speaks for itself for me- wiped out image! Can a lier recognise him/herself? The events of living in a lie distorts one's image of oneself and reveals to the other who they were and what they could be! Often times one doesn't need to read a book to know what it is all about. Do judge the book by its cover and decide if you want to read further! Sometimes quotes can do the reading, on the rest your mind can do the leg work!

Shrug that image that defeats you! I once said "I lie to lier's" and this produced results where the lier's said "What?" and the Truth sayers said "Good for them". To a lier everything is a lie even the truth. Everyone knows that i can't tell a lie to save my own life and by hearing that i say i lie revealed to me that they thought i bought in to their truth. When they say birds of same feather flock together it means when your values don't align then there is a lie somewhere.

In reality i know that those who lie can't live in the truth. They have lost out on what good could come to them. They trade their birth right to the wrongs of the universe. Everything seems like its going out of control and they are unable to hold the good they once enjoyed. I never bother about what people tell me, i give them what they want and if they can't live with it then all i can say is "I am sorry but i have to go where life leads me". A heart that loves can not lie.

Power over the present moment!

Eckhart Tolle said "The past has no power over the present moment."

Wrong. When you are needed you will be found wanted! The only time the past has no power over the present is when it serves a greater purpose for the future! If the past speaks for what you do today then it could become the aid or ill.

This quote could also mean you can change tomorrow regardless of the circumstances you are in today!

No wahala!

A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.
William Blake.

Had an encounter with a person that I respected that proves this quote to be true! She never lied but her intent was obvious!

Not easily broken!

There are no facts, only interpretations. - Friedrich Nietzsche
I asked some some time ago why did they trust me even when they were told I am dangerous! They said if you hurt us the first time then we wouldn't trust you any more!

I have an image that precedes me, told by those who don't trust themselves but there are those who know themselves and me! For that I will always respect them even after they had proven themselves unworthy of my trust! Regardless of how circumstances have changed or change people my attitude towards myself remains same, I leave them to manage themselves from hence forth!

There is a difference in how I perceive myself and how others perceive me, if they are likely to listen to those who talk about me and act on it the responsibility remains theirs! Should someone depend or relay on me I do employ my level of responsibility to the fullest! Adults are responsible or should be made responsible for their thoughts and actions or they will never grow!

Important kind of freedom!

The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can't be any large-scale revolution until there's a personal revolution, on an individual level. It's got to happen inside first. Jim Morrison

There is a point in the Declaration of Independence that caught my attention: "When a government fails to protect those rights, it is not only the right, but also the duty of the people to overthrow that government. In its place, the people should establish a government that is designed to protect those rights."

In searching through history I wonder if it isn't in favour of some external governments to keep certain governments in place! If the regime favours them why would they help the other? Same it is with a majority of people, they turn a blind eye to injustice hence we see that bad, wrong And ugly continues its reign! It is quite clear to me that to overthrow a government as a single person is to extricate myself from its influence by making them dependent on me! Develop skills that are of need to them and force them to negotiate a price for a peace of my pie!

If there is a click in the GOVERMENT that holds power be stronger than them by knowing their weaknesses and beating them to that punch line! Provision seems to be the only way that establishes relevance in the eyes of those who have become stagnant to ignorance!

The truth shall set you free!

I believe in everything until it's disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it's in your mind. Who's to say that dreams and nightmares aren't as real as the here and now?

John Lennon

Even the Churches need to transform their ideology of what the supposed devil music is. What motivates the conservatives doesn't motivate the liberals. We all have our preferences and some interchange at different moments and it doesn't make them turncoats. Sometimes what pop music does for me the quire can't and sometimes joyful  noise can be overwhelming when the heart seeks tranquility. Democracy should be the bridge as voicing out is the joyful noise of a nation to decide where it wishes to go.

Mark Twain said "give the truth to those who are worth it"! How does one say the truth to someone who is worthy of it? How does one know who is worth it? Aren't we all worth it? Is it to those who want to be saved? I would presume that the truth is an opinion and that may come across as abusive like in the following example; 

Here's all you have to know about men and women: women are crazy, men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid. by George Carlin

I could rephrase it by saying " Are women crazy? Are men stupid? Do women go crazy because men do stupid things"? I guess the difference in approach is quite evident. One is a statement that is generalistic and the other allows exploration rather than dishing out statements that yields no fruit but emotions. Yes maybe some statements are said in order to trigger an effect but its result is often negative i.e hold no knowledge of an environment but the state of a singular mind that resonates or responds to it. These are the kind of statement that can get someone hated. Don't say the truth that can get you killed!

Who, what and when!

World view, a concept borrowed from cultural anthropology, refers to the culturally dependent, generally subconscious, fundamental organization of the mind. This conceptual organization manifests itself as a set of presuppositions that predispose one to feel, think, and act in predictable patterns.

Kenneth G. Tobin (1993) The practice of constructivism in science educaction. p. 58: Talking about world view theory.

To me propaganda is same as hypnosis, quite a distasteful act of people who brainwash a nation to believe in what may but could exist if they start working on an initial idea! If Hitler succeeded at his idea it's because the people wanted someone to blame for their misfortunes! Anyone can be made to believe in anything if a point of reference is established! Someone may came close to being hypnotised without them knowing, manipulated into picking up a sword but something within should push against it! Listen to those pressure points within that tells you something is amiss! To be suspicious is a protective instinct! Asking why is a method for defusing anything anyone says! Who, what and when predisposes one to act!

It is forbidden to kill; therefore all murderers are punished unless they kill in large numbers and to the sound of trumpets.
Voltaire

You must be out of your mind!

A machine can't do what the human mind can or should! It lacks sensitivity that is most needed in times of crises! It may be programmed to store data but the production and assessment of it is left to the human mind in combination with the heart "intuition"! Technology is also limited by the level of available tools inbuilt! A chisel still needs a hammer to carve the wood!

A stealth mindset is required to manage people. A stealth mindset is developed in people who have had to experience situations of high risk or pressure! This is why kids who have hassled on the streets rather than only read text books become employers! A lot in the business world revolves around risk not necessarily in terms of danger but preventing by foreseeing possible events that could lead or should be taken to forge ahead!

I had performed what one calls "strategic elicitation exercise", in which I pushed people on my social network into conversations from a variety of topics regardless of how simple or obscene it may have looked at at the time and in conjunction with my experience to produce analysis of a given environment.

My tactic was to make myself a dartboard in order to understand the social issues within and outside my group. This way I played the good and the bad cop at the same time. I wasn't really interested in what was going on in their lives but more how they would react by responding to a  perception of me and them! Now I am asking myself what are the Marketers and PR students doing sitting in the classroom when they are supposed to be field workers!

Can you see what others don't?

How come martyrs were made into saints? Is exalting part of cleansing guilt or is it a form of higher justice? Has anyone ever heard when one says the words "empty vessels"? Those who believe that spirituality exists understand that angels and daemons exists! There are angels on earth or this word would not even exist to define them!

How about when someone prays for a guardian angel? They walk among us and take up different behavorial patterns! Maybe the scientists have come close in explaining it, it is called Force! Has anyone ever wondered how is It possible for certain people to know things would happen before they happen? It's quite hard to make unbelievers believe that a force exists, the Christians call it the Holy Ghost!

How about the word Love or Hate; wouldn't some come out to say they have experienced its energy and then seen the evidence of it? When 2 people love each other at some point they would do things for each other without saying the words out loud, something that can be described as telepathy! How does one know when a touch or a smile is desired? You raise your eyes and you see that smile and you are touched!

How about the genome they call Dreams? Ideas that go around the world and waiting for a vessel who wishes to receive it! One just needs to be receptive! If ones heart is full of love wouldn't good ideas as thoughts become present? If they are of the negative type wouldn't they exhibit bad? By their words ye shall define them and by their deeds ye shall know them! I guess the unbeliever would like to see and hear before they believe! It is only your faith that delivers you! If you want to rise you will rise and not someone laying hands on you!

William Shakespeare said:  The empty vessel makes the loudest sound. I guess what he was saying was those who believe the least express it the most!

Freedom without liberty!

One is more likely to be afraid of the criminal behind bars than the angel on the loose! If I were to write a horror movie it would revolve around the wrath that goes on in the hearts of carnal men!

Sheep's when scared cluster, shepherds take their staff to battle!
Anything in life can happen to a kid and they will survive and thrive but dishing out empty promises and threatening their future breakers their heart! They become doubtful of life as they see it exemplified in the words of their parents! Should they find faith in our Heavenly Father they will never feel letdown by people!

We have parents who don't know the difference between duty and responsibility! I used to know a youth  who had expressed her dream to be an Ambassador and all she got was laughed at by her mother, she told me that the only way she could ensure that that dream didn't die was to bring back her father!

Freedom without liberty; you can do what you like but not what you want.

Meaningless! Meaningless!

◄ Ecclesiastes 1:2 ► "Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless!

Everything is meaningless."

I was once asked by my fathers friend "Why was King Solomon given so many wives?" I got to understand through our chats that my fathers friend is a very wise man and a teacher and when he asks questions i know he has an opinion of his own. At the time i said i couldn't give him an answer even though i could feel the words rolling in my tongue. I waited until i made extensive research on not what i am told about King Solomon but what i know of men. He is a man after all before his title. If i go by what i know to be the mentality of our society as regards to a man having plenty wives and our women pretty much accepting that then i guess he was insinuating that i should also accept that too.

Another African man once told me this "that if a man who has only one woman something is wrong with him. The same man lost his family due to having a wondering eye. Well the history of this man was that he was heart broken thats why he said so. He developed a disrespectful attitude towards women, yet he had a mother he cherished and a sister who passed away in trying to support 6 children while she forgot about her own wellbeing. So i did know he wasn't a lost cause regardless of what he was saying. Sometimes it helps to know the history of a mans relationship to understand why they say what they say in order to not get mislead by their emotions. Half the time people express their views as advice and following that may be detrimental to a young heart. If men don't like their women to be shared they shouldn't say so as a method for self encouragement publicly. If you wish to cheat then cheat yourself or on yourself not others. Taking out your pain on another is cheating yourself of of an opportunity to live again, the other may move on to be happy in the memory that he/she gave.

On hindsight: It is presumed that a man who is attached to one woman becomes weak minded! In Nigeria when a man is with one wife they call them "woman rapa" and it seems that it is those men that fall into temptations; many want what they can't have and many have succeeded in ruining their homes to this mentality. Love they say is blind, it blinds one to the realities of life! Many women many problems and keeps the mind alert "it fuels the ambition of men to possess more earthly goods than heavenly gifts" unfortunately the opposite is the effect. 

When a mans heart is exhausted in pursuit of pleasure he wastes his energy to vanity! Sooner or later we all want peace at old age, what did K.S. have to deal with even if he had enough to take care of them? Is it possible to be kind and not loose affection from the people who keep him on the throne? When you have to shake hands with so many people wouldn't you develop a rash? He lost his faith and that is the worst thing that can happen to a human being regardless of what they posess. He was compromised with too many conflicts of interests. If he truly was loved by God then he should be a tyrant to peoples  people. A wise leader is a kind and principled leader. Kind to himself and principled in dealing with people, especially strangers or the political alliances to which his marriages involved him in. King Solomon was ruined by his advisors; clearly being distracted by so many demands! Atleast in his days to be given a blow job wasn't a crime, in the free world you will be impitched. Look at the state of Africa because of polygamy or look at the men abroad who have to pay alimonies to 4 wives and then commit subside. The forbidden apple myth should now be obvious to the foresighted.  Ah the wicked men who compiled the bible or is it the unseating mind that is at fault? Of course there are those who can handle 10 wives, i hail the muslim brothers who by saying you can marry as many as you wish remove the pressure to do so but our christian pritchers who say don't furnish and adulterate your life by that have dangled the carrot to the unwise. Of course the men will hate me for saying this but when wisdom shouts on the streets they turn a blind eye. K.S is a myth however the wise are crowned with honour regardless of if they are acknowledged publicly or not. Our father in heaven provides abundantly for his children who hid to his words and teachings.

When the bible preaches that Eve was tempted by the serpent it implies that women have weak hearts because they love with their ears. However the women who keep a disciplined mind and body have spirituality beyond mesure. A woman who is able to harness her energy is virtuous. 

A sound mind is a sound heart! Throwing your energies in pursuit of happiness does not bring joy, no wonder the Queen of Sheba left! Imagine having to manage her own nation "family" and be playing politics with the ministers of affairs "inlaws and extended family"! If the facts during my research on her through the libraries is right then all she could do is take with her the gift of love or die! I consorted with a friend some days ago and he said "publicly loved is privately despised". What profits a man to gain the world and loose his soul"?! It seems that in the 3rd world countries a man is hated for being principled.

Father in heaven help our men in Africa who listen to wayward friends who wish the fall of their friends!

2 faced rules.

Where do broken hearts go?

Sometimes they get pissed at themselves for being nervous and the next moment they break a rule they shouldn't. When having a feeling that one has been unseated from making decisions over ones life and livelihood their minds seek a release of tension. Some get lost, some run away and never want to be found, some simply reject the world and its 2 faced rules.

where are the misled kids?

The Would haves and Could nots!

Let those who are willing come forward, let those who are able stand beside them! Deeds tests the willing, time test the able! Are you willing and able? Then be the master of time and deeds!

The seven heavenly virtues oppose the seven deadly sins in the battle of Souls. It is one thing to outline the sins and virtues but in a world where we have ignorance of how to achieve virtue all are lost to sin!

The seven sins are all circumstantial based attributes influenced by the environment we choose not to be in! At youth very few have the luxury to choose where they want to be! How ever at an adult stage one is free to choose to change or let habits take rule!

In lust: If one is young and Unmarried lust seems to be an unpublishable sin as it is a process for self discovery! But cleaningness is a desired state from intoxicants, at that age as it may lead to addiction! At a young age self control is hard to master as hormones and external influences are stronger! Intoxication is not just that of alcohol, sex and violence it is also in absorbing bullshit from those who themselves know not what they do! Purging oneself from the environment is a must!

To be honest with oneself, one's family, one's friends, and to all of humanity. These are circumstantial as ones family and society can force one to be dishonest. To be honest with oneself is the ability to take part blame and glory for what happens!

Indifference at any age is sin! To be full of oneself and caring not for others! Unrepentant of actions that affect self and people!

Gluttony seems to be the hardest of all sins to turn into virtues as this is learnt through experience. How you eat is a habit adopted from childhood! Prudence is a state of mind and differentiating between self and public interest and rights of others is a skill that few are endowed with from birth or in time through experience! Constant mindfulness of others may lead one to become a shadow of oneself so choosing when to take for oneself and giving to others is a must! Understanding the keywords from the Declaration of Independence; Life, Liberty and Pursuit should cover the essence of right and wrong from good and bad! A glutton is someone who absorbs everything without discrimination!

When one understands free will it is easy to accept rejection of ones thoughts or intentions! Greed is as a result of assuming that only your thoughts or intentions are right! To possess ones mind or the minds of others is an act of greed! Forcing others to think like you only for the benefit of self satisfaction is violating the principle of fee will! Information is different from knowledge. Providing an insight to what maybe the consequences before an action is different from setting up an environment for actions to take place! Staging is setting up someone towards a selfish end that may turn out totally different from what was initially planned!

Envy, Pride and Sloth are the very word for hate! It eats you alive! Haters hate themselves, they treat the world the way they were treated! We breed our haters and lovers! Sometimes it is dangerous to love those who hate you and for that moment it is best to project hostility! To be hostile sometimes is to be silent and watchful of their deeds, that defuses a moments situation! Being able to make a distinction in the moment is what may save your life! When does a sheep wear a wolves clothing and when does a wolf wear a sheeps cloth? This is a matter of life and death, the moments of survival of the fittest!

Love those who hate you for it protects you from becoming like them and hate those who love you for it allows you to see/achieve balance!

We all love compliments but ask yourself did you earn it? We all hate to be scorned but ask yourself do you deserve it? Asking oneself questions allows you to become slow to anger! There is always an opportunity for a payback but may not have a second opportunity for a come back!

The state of church!

Declaration of Independence happens In 2 ways separation of state and church!

On a personal level : no man shall be lord over me! On a social level: no people shall dictate my path! I shall always question the words of men and my deeds shall establish my will.

It is said that the source copy of the Declaration of Independence was lost! To start exploring my question is; what is the source for one to seek/declare independence? Historical facts of misuse of authority and manipulation is usually the prime reason for separation! If one looks at the state of economy before the revolution one will understand Why events took place! Economy is not about money especially in relationships!

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.

Why would a woman seek Life, Liberty and pursue Happiness? We. Hold this truths to be self evident that women just like men possess a mind and a heart for life! Women suffer in wars and famine with their life and livelihood! If only they knew the pain in a mothers heart when she has to protect her kids from governments of men who seek to use her kids as tools of war, how painful when she gives her share to the kids while he sits round the corner feasting with his friends and indulging in pleasures! If women are not free to demand for fairness and security then let no other man have it! Why the pressure to be married before she is of state to cater for herself? Why create or sustain economies that take advantage of women and then persecute the women for not having better choices for survival other than prostitution or early age marriage?

For one she is human in "body" and a being in "soul" and the function of wife, mother is relevant on a socioeconomic level only! It doesn't really matter weather she is allowed to go to school or not because life becomes her teacher! After centuries of self repression women started fighting back for the liberty to pursue  knowledge of life and find happiness in the embrace of a beloved against forced marriages and repressive rules of conduct that served only men!

This has come with heavy sacrifice. Where women are liberated it traps the men who seek to possess the free spirit! Oh how tempting is that illusive eagle that soars above all mundane souls on earth!
The soaring eagle, the phenix that is reborn from its own ashes! How wonderful is a heart that seeks no liberties for it is free to bring happiness to others and in it finds joy!

Believe me, dear: Man mistakes a loyal soldier for a fool! Takes for granted that which was given easily. There is no woman who does not wish to marry and build a home. But by God that made her in same flesh and blood as men will cease to wish and exist under mutiny and be mute!
What man seeks to live with a nagging wife? What home can be built with a timid partner? Fair ladies can't be won by faint hearts, no knight will die for a floosy.

The fundamental rights to life and security demands that there be self respect and honour towards others! Individuality is interpreted as selfishness but character is in the heart of those who fight for the good of family and allowing others to lay their eggs in is not permissible to bringing up a happy home! Maybe Leaders are born through adversity but so is a tyrant who has experienced nothing bad himself but inflicts it on others.

Happy Valentine!

I am beginning to wonder "why is it that guys need to be complimented for having sex? Why do women feel the need to tell their guys "oh that was amazing?" Is it surprising that pushing and thrusting is pleasurable yet the heart may not have been satisfied? Valentine is for the heart! I love you, be my valentine, for the sake of that one day I say "I love you" and you don't need to say it back to me, I love you for being there for me, I love you for standing by me, for listening to me, for letting me know I am wanted! For making me feel slim when I feel like I am fat, for making me glow because you love me, for not choosing your friends and family over me. For wanting to be with me and waiting for me!

The true story of St. Valentine is a sad one that brought happiness to those who truly know what love is and not just for getting pleasure! Where is my Valentine? Do people believe in love or do they want love?

Time of my Life!

It would be quite easy for me to say that medicine just as law can become an evil tool in the hands of the bad just as authority in the wrong person hands! The bible is a good book to the fool and in the hand of the wise a tool for destruction of souls!

There is nothing like business ethics that's just a way for saying policies and procedures will protect you but what will stand as your aid is personal principles of living.

In the name of "progress" a lot of atrocities have been committed by the guardians of health and safety! Prevention is better than cure but when there is no choice audacity becomes your only hope! May our father in heaven stand to protect the innocent and the weak from the wise!

Rubbing man of reason! We do this everyday by labelling innovation as insanity! Well maybe every genius is heinous in the eyes of the public! Hide, hide I say by being crazy but mind your manners! I am happy in my madness, I see the world through my own eyes! It's amazing how simple things in the mind of a complex world is called madness!

Why do doctors think they are gods? They have been given knowledge  of the frailty of the human body but power over the mind eludes them! They may come close but never near! If The Lord works in mysterious ways how easy is it for man to know what will happen next? To every cause there are multiple effects and one may waste their time trying to be ready for all possibilities! All smart people are crazy and it is madness to try control them! A broken heart can surely drive one insane!

Too predictable!

Was just listening to an interesting program in which I heard that governments slack in creating stability! My question is. Why seek for stability if governments duty is to achieve balance? Something goes out of line create a tactic to balance  the scale!

Its quite evident that in the past wars were the economic solution to the unemployment problems; wiping out a few so the many can be employed. Stalin wouldn't rise from the grave to explain why so many had to die before, during and after the war. Ass hole. Hitler was just a tool just as Napoleon. Puppets. My people perish for lack of knowledge taken by the element of surprise and the unwillingness to learn from history, even till this day they will not go to the library and analyse events. If people do not know whats good for them they will elect their faith."

If change is inevitable why expect stability? Only emotional people look for stability. Dinosaurs were extinct because life was too predictable!

Set yourself right!

Don't look for your opponent know where he is! "Where" in this instance  means "in what situation is your opponent?" In the business world opponent means market positioning!

Set yourself right!

Whole Hearted!

Sometimes i get into a funny mood and can see in a motivational quote something that defeats me; in this case it was the picture that killed the statement for me. Next to the following was a picture of a sports man who plays American football:

I get hit, I get up.
I get hit, I get up.
I get hit, I get up.
I get hit, I get up.
I get hit, I get up...
GET KNOCKED DOWN 7 TIMES GET UP 8

My mind simply said: if i get paid  to fall down a million times i will rise a million and ten times.

There are just certain things that sports men or women shouldn't do thats use sports for motivational speeches. Sport is about Strategy and tactics and not for tact preaching. American football is an aggressive sport even if one is padded. I have nothing against the sport in fact i find it more interesting than soccer although i am more of a basket ball fan.

Doing the bidding always!

Sometimes people ask me, "where do i begin identifying who i am and being who i am". I say, usually the simplest and complex way to do it is go through your zodiac sign generic description. Its a way of mirroing your image. Astrology to me in part helps identify types of characters and not necessarily an exact description of a person as a lot of factors influence character, and i surely hope that it is you who shape you rather than everyone doing the bidding always.

Lets take for instance me. I am a scorpio by sign. I started to get interested in my sign when i was 12. Reason for this was that i had a nasty aunt who tried to set an image of me of the negative scorpion. Mostly at a latter age in my life implying that i was sex driven; well, i was 16 and she was 23 years of age and in her prime years seeking for suitors to marry but unsuccessfully, while she saw around me fellows her age but i was just friends with them. In the bid to pull some attention to herself she painted me as black "which was a projection of her inner desire to be wanted".

You see, i saw myself from the positive side to the description of the sign.

• Characteristics of those born under Scorpio include; focused, emotionally sensitive, complex, determined, and charismatic. 

While she saw me through herself from the negative side.

• Scorpios are also known to have less flattering characteristics like being stubborn, cruelty, jealousness, possessive, and moments of extremity.

and the more she did the less attractive her example of me through herself became.

There are loads of books on zodiac signs and in all i see similarities but i also see added qualities. Something that a few mentioned was foresight. This is something that many around me weren't aware of that i had. I am likely to do or use the strangest ways to avert disaster happening in other peoples lives but could never do that for myself. Its almost as though i would put on their dirty shoes and leave them my new ones. I never really minded if i remained a shadow that saved Gotham city "Proverbs 3:27-35. Never really saw myself as a hero until i noticed that i am always surrounded by either evil or people in need and my character moulded over time to be that of a protector and guardian and in event projects the focused, emotionally sensitive, complex, determined, and charismatic person that no one really saw until i decided not to hide any more. I would deliberately at times turn evil and all of a sudden they would say "but you aren't evil". I laugh and say, "do i need to become bad for people to suddenly realise i was good"?

I had lived in extreme cultural environments and surrounded by people who were envious, jealous, cruel, possessive and created those moments of extremity in my life. What brought this up today for me was an incident sometime ago. Someone told me that i am perceived as a spy. I laugh because those who were saying so were same people who were snooping around me for information about my business and person.

SO remember when you are looking at yourself or for yourself make sure it isn't through the eyes of others. Now i guess i have been thought how to be cruel but mostly to those who have been so to me. I am only human and i learn from others. Opposites attract they say, in this instant i would believe that some people piss you off to such a level that you can make their wildest dreams come true and through for your own sanity to prevail rather than carry their baggage.

Another Day In Paradise!

They say be careful for what you wish for you just might get it but could they keep it? 

They both wished upon a star. She wished to give love, he wished to find love. It came in a very unusual way; They weren't wrapped up in a box with a bow. HE sent down an angel in diguise to make his wish come tthrough and pushed her towards a broken heart. She was as transparent as broad day light and he was wearing a mask of a happy man.

She believed in the star, he didn't believe in the God he sent a prayer to. What would be the price to pay to make the wishes come through? All for Love!

Made of steel!

Seeing and hearing is believing; Say what is wanted and do what is needed!

Regardless of if we all think that God sees and knows everything, to hear yourself saying out what you had done or intend reveals and releases the hold of a mistake or deed on you. That's the power of confession!

We are who we are and accepting one another in flesh and its souls cravings is perfectly natural but not in a world that seeks to assassinate character in the being that seeks to find itself. The concept of Christ is yet to be adopted by a world full of self loathing.

For life and the living!

Sometimes cowardice can be seen as "I do not share your point of view." When there is a senseless act to be taken then cowardice is good reason! When one needs to stand up for something worth dying for and doesn't then issue a feather! I am watching a film called " The four feathers" and I see the situations that drive young people into stupid acts! If a country is attacked then as an officer one can make a decision to fight but when you are persuaded to kill for economic gains then that honour is stripped of automatically!

I guess in the military the order is different. For those generals who make a career in killing; to save lives would seem an act of cowardice! We civilians have a choice to be brave! He served his friends best by resigning his commission. Sometimes friends can lead you to slaughter; ego can be blinding.

• Proverbs 17:16 Why is there a price in the hand of a fool to buy wisdom, When he has no sense? 17 A friend loves at all times, And a brother is born for adversity. 18 A man lacking in sense pledges And becomes guarantor in the presence of his neighbour.…
• Proverbs 18:24 - One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Shall we Wed?

A dialogue in the film "Shall we Dance?" captured my mind.

 We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet... I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness'."

What a wonderful way to put the sum up to a vow! May God be our witness!

Snow White!

Sometimes i wonder if all the great plays have already been written, especially by the hand of Shakespeare. Is there a way to beat him at his game? I was in search for a story that can fully depict the essence of love. I ask myself have i already lived it or is there one in store somewhere? In looking back i have come close, in looking forward i can not wait to see if it is possible for a heart like mine to still believe that it is possible. Ah Shakespeare give me your words for i have seen all of your plays; in them i see no comedy, in them i see tragedy as a way to make the readers experience what was. How can one in our days feel it? They say times don't change because people do not change. What if there is a love so strong that it can change someone and keep them safe? Its hard to believe in people and easy to believe in love. Should one infatuate a muse to fuel the adventures of the mind? Where do i start to amuse myself with heavenly dreams, where do i start to describe the face that i could love? The job of a writer isn't an easy one; to find words out of thin air? to feel what one hasn't experienced? To feel for a human and make him into a living God? How can he love me when he is not there? How can he love me when he isn't near? How does he capture my heart without actions? All these questions taunt the heart. Ah Romeo, where art thou Romeo? Is he slender or is he round? Does he smile or does he frown? Does he walk or does he drive? Is he a pauper or a prince? Have I infatuated a pauper to be a prince? The dreams of girls are endless, the realities of women are tragedies with moments of bliss. Let me try and tell a story of a girl i once knew who now turned into a woman i didn't recognise after 10 years.

We sat by the fire place sipping on wine and as we lit our cigarets, she told me her story. Her Name was Rose White! I wonder where she is now, i wonder if she has found love.

Rose: I often take myself for evening rides but this day something drew me away from my usual routine. I came home, i undressed and put on my usual homie clothes and all i wanted was to just lay there and wait for the next day to come. I sat on my bed but something kept pushing me up. I played my music but the uneasiness wouldn't go away. I took a shower to ease myself and still the feeling wouldn't go away. I dressed up, i looked at myself in the mirror and saw a glow in it. I remember that day as if it were today. I told myself that i would just take myself for a drive as i usually did to relax. My car is my best buddy. You know i often imagined myself to be the night Rider, have conversations about my day with my talking car and in that i would sooth the uneasiness as though being rocked like a baby to sleep. I used it to offload my mind from worries. But this day was different, i wasn't ok after the ride so i took myself to a bar nearby. I walked in, ordered for a Gin & Tonic. Someone approached and asked for my name. I felt an instant draw back. I paid my bill and left. On getting into my car i didn't feel like i wanted to go back to my room and thinking of where else to go on the friday night reluctantly went to another bar where my X boyfriend spent all his nights drinking to a stupor. You see Alsu i left him because he was a heavy drinker and we always had arguments about me not wanting to go there every night. What lead to our breakup was that I showed hesitation on one  occasion when I went to see my aunt and I didn't pick up his call because I wanted to think hard about what I was going through. He presumed I was with someone and that was the end if I may lightly put it affair! I was going through a hard time of moving from one town to the other and still hadn't found a permanent place to stay. He did offer me to stay with him but i was never comfortable as i didn't want to start a relationship by depending on anyone especially a man. I didn't want him to feel like i would take advantage of him and didn't want him to take advantage of my fragile state of circumstance.

Alsu: So what did you do, did you still go there?
Rose: Yes I did, that was the only place i felt a little more comfortable as there no one hassles a girl for attention, besides i was a friend to the owner of the bar, he would let me sit behind the bar and away from the night butterflies, as well as i could order a drink and pay latter. Of course my X was there but we had separated amicably and could exchange a few words of hello and how have you been. I always like to look at how people worked and see how they responded to pressure with customers and the bar was always noisy. After a few drinks i was just about going home when a tall broad shouldered man walked in and shook hands with the fellows i knew. I turned my head and couldn't help but smile as he had a glow of confidence and poise about him. He smiled back, i greened even wider. He showed me a thumbs up and after a moment approached.

We exchanged cheeky pleasantries. His friend John did give him a warning of some kind that my x boyfriend was present there. He told me later about it. He said he didn't listen as he felt that a few exchange of words wouldn't harm anyone! We had quite a lot to drink, then the three of us left to the Nightclub where i had initially been for a dance. We rocked the floor, danced all the alcohol out and headed for home! I had my own car and he followed me behind. I told myself what a gentle man for escorting me to the place of my stay . I parked my car and came outside to bid him a good night. There was nothing more on my mind than thanks for a pleasant evening and maybe a little wish that it could go farther. As i approached him he said he had 3kids and an x Wife and my reply reply was that it didn't matter! And it didn't matter because with what i saw in my life for 22 years couldn't in my mind begin to compare to what he was talking about! A divorcee wasn't a horrible judgement on anyone, things happen and i myself came from a broken home and never judged my parents for separating, in fact i thought it was the best option rather than making everyone miserable.

Over the next 2 weeks of us interacting and relaying our issues I identified his problems to be similar with that of my father! On one occasion when he blamed everything on his x wife I recollect telling myself that "everyone blames the other for what went wrong, I said life will tell a better story. He then proceeded to introduce me to his friends and family! Everything seemed ok! We made love like there was no tomorrow. We could speak on phone for hours. It drove my colleagues mad with jealousy. Every-time my phone would ring they would roll their eyes. Every friday to monday morning we would be together and then he would take me home. The city was so big and where we stayed from each other was quite a distance across the broklin bridge. I didn't know the route to his place but he would come pick me up and take me back when it was time to go to work.

Alsu: You must have been happy!
Rose: Oh yes. i couldn't breathe without thinking of him. I wasn't aware of any fear nor obstacles. At the time no pride nor prejudice existed then in my heart. It was almost his birthday and its at that point some realities kicked in. I realised that we had been so happy that neither of us asked how old we were. I would presume now that he did see me young but i never questioned his age as he didn't look it. He seemed to me at the time to be somewhere around 38 i didn't know he was 12 years older than me. He never looked old, he still doesn't.

The problems started from the night when he took me to a club for a dance and drink and there were thugs; younger guys who felt they owned the world and everyone was theirs to have. They harassed us, groped me In front of him and he did nothing to protect me to a level where I had to take charge or things would have escalated beyond measure and it did, but i couldn't not stand up for myself or i would have lost any confidence in me! I had been totally naive about the mindset of guys when it comes to envy because I walked in their midst but never as a gal but a buddy because i was a tom boy and could always give guys a run for their wits. When we came back he began to apologise, how ever what came out from him were the words "maybe we should date for about 3 -4 years and see if we are compatible! I told him that should we date for more than a year and we didn't know where we were heading to, that we best cut it off there and then! He said nothing and about 3 weeks later said he loved me. To which I made no reciprocation but only said "I really don't know anything about love" he was the first guy ever to have said that to me and I think I was not expecting it!

Alsu: But did you eventually reciprocate?
Rose: Yes i did. I needed to ease myself into it because i didn't want to play with him nor myself and committing to what i didn't know. Sincerely after the incident at the nightclub i was a bit scared of its true meaning.

At some point I decided to open up to him about me, first I invited him to see where I lived! I lived in one of the houses in the slums of Queens. On the outside the house looked habitable but what was on the inside is what many who didn't live there didn't realise was! It was a building that someone who knew someoene I knew inherited from his parents and turned It into a temporary place to lay your head until one could afford to rent a decent apartment, which I didn't have at the time! I came into this town with less than what i could rent and a job that I found at the time! I didn't know a soul nor were there realtors and honestly i couldn't afford their fees! I quartered for a week at a time in different places, slept in my car parked in parking lots when the persons who i stayed with would try take advantage of me being in a vulnerable state of affairs!

Time went by and I met every friend, I felt everything was ok and on! I had issues at work where a subordinate of mine and the executive had a fight and i didnt realise at the time that it was a projection of what was going on behind closed doors! I had to intervene and resolve the matter and when I came close to knowing the truth I was asked to leave! I lost my job and fell into despair! However I kept savings that would last me for about 6 months and my brother supported me! So I needed to recuperate! During that period I had gone to the place I stayed and was put at gun point! The people who were around were the night butterflies who literarily saved me from being violated and said I should stay way for a time!

I started being interrogated by him about why I lost my job and clearly because I didn't know the exact reason became agitated and I sort of expected that all he would say is dont worry there would be another one. He distanced himself and I felt rejected and that plunged me further into dispair! I had no qualification but skills, I couldn't really hope for getting a job easy!

I had to be around him for about 2 months in isolation, the guy with the spark in his eyes diapered and words like "I don't need a woman to serve me" when I would cook a meal would surface! I wish I knew why I didn't at all those moments turn around and left or best put the plate on his head! To some reason he believed that it's because I was looking to hang on him! See Alsu this is the reason i never wanted to stay in any of my boyfriends apartment because i never wanted to be labeled with their fear and loose respect for myself but i loved this man. Even till this day I never took a penny from anyone or from a man. He didnt see I had no one but him and returning back was as good as being dead, for me then to accept failure was hard, i couldn't give up on myself. I had lost my job before due to redundancy, the company i worked for had shut down and retired everyone. I picked myself up.


Time passed by and things between us seemed to get better but it was never the same as i had been constantly aware of the cloud that i was not perfect in his eyes anymore.

Alsu: SO what now?

Rose: I left, i couldn't struggle anymore with myself and loose the love i had for him. I preferred to  leave in peace and move on with my life as though it didn't happen. I will keep him alive in my heart, than see it become what we both could not live with later.

Alsu: I guess it is what should have happened at best!

On leaving Rose Whites house i couldn't help but send a prayer to her to be well and find love again. Maybe this is best and need not go further than it did. Sometimes one should keep the love and leave life to its own rather than loosing out to both.